20th Feb 2011, Stress and the home sweet home

Day 5 begin with Sarah remain cheerfull as both mama and ayah was around when she woke up. Similing and laughing.

But it was all gone when ayah said ayah nak keluar.

'NO!!!'

For Sarah, having both mama and ayah around is almost like having home sweet home with her.

Today is last chemo day. Sarah should received the drugs at 9:30 and should be checking out at around 7pm. But....
The drug was late .... why...because there was no concierge (staff yg kerjanya kesana kesini, fetch pesakit, hantar fail etc). Satu reason yang tak berapa nak boleh diterima dek akal.
When it did arrived at noon (after several follow up by mama), there was no aluminium foil available. Such an expensive and luxury medical center can have this problem?

By this time, it was mama who became super stress. Kesian mama.
Ubat lambat masuk = ubat lambat habis
ubat lambat habis = Sarah lambat balik
Sarah lambat balik = lagi banyak tangisan sedih Sarah
Lagi banyak tangisan sedih Sarah = lagi tension dan stress mama.

But...finally at 9:00pm the last drug finished. By this time Sarah dah jadi lemah. Kalau duduk, nak tegakkan kepala pun tak larat? Side effect of the chemo, plus hari ni Sarah makan sikit sangat, susu kurang dari biasa. Muntah few times. Tapi takde apa yang nak dimuntahkan. Sampai muntah kuning keluar.

'I want mother cook'. Sarah nak makan masakan mama. Dah tak lalu nak makan makanan hospital. Sarah nak pedas. Baru senang nak telan, kan Sarah kan.

Despite being weak, Sarah still eager to reach home. Dalam kereta, bila mama dan ayah cakap, 'nanti main dengan Mina', Sarah senyum melebar dan said 'Minaaa'.